I’m not people who concern enough with the term “new year”. The main reason why I love new year is because it’s time to get fun with friends, to spend holiday, and to celebrate something. Not as ambitious as other people who might say, “in this new year, i will bla bla bla.. my resolution for this year is bla bla bla.. ” No. And I completely forgot, did I make any resolutions last year? I guess zero.

So now I’m going to reflect about how my 2011 was going.

A little moved backward, I had one of the worst day in my life in December 2010. I broke with my boyfriend. It was surprised and shocked me.  Our relationship was too deep, like all the huge families were already connected. Kind like that. During December, life was like a never ending nightmare. Full of crying, grieving, whinning. Then I entered 2011, in fun trip. A good start to refresh my life.

During January, life was slightly different, I started to teach my own class in school that I’ve been working. I used to be very stressed during my first 2 weeks. I need to adapt with 20 kids in my class. It wasn’t as easy as I thought before.This month was all about my working.

And, I started to think about myself. Think about things that I couldn’t do before. I’ve joined UDW, dance academy, that i enjooy so much. One of the best decision I made. I tried to enrich myself by learning other language. I joined CCF, and at least, I can make some introduction in French now.

My udw and ccf things worked well. My days was full from monday to sunday. Started from January 2011, and still until now, This has been my daily routine:

Monday-friday : working from 8 am to 3 pm. 1-2 days a week, hang out with friends/ shop by myself.

Saturday: ccf 8-12, having saturday night with friends.

Sunday: UDW 10-12.

I started to reconnect with my friends. You know, me and that ex used to spend the whole life together, like monday to sunday, morning to night. I still played with friends in some occasions. But, just more like, occasionally. Gladly, my friends were still there. They understood, welcomed, and was happy when I back.

In the middle of February, I started my relationship again with that ex. Actually, in December, we made agreement to talk our stuffs again after a month. So there we were. We’re back in relationship, but things didn’t work well. So on July, I decided to give up. I love to give up when I’ve already tried my best. Trying is good when you know when to stop. When you keep trying without consider everything between and around, it is stupid. I relieved at that time. I was sad, but not as much as in December, because I know, I’ve already tried. I needed to open my eyes.

I had my birthday on July. I used to think that my birthday would be worse without that ex, that used to give sweet surprise and stuffs every year. But, my sister did something for me. She made surprise party and invited some friends. I’ve got another surprise party at work. So, it wasn’t that bad.

Move to 2nd semester in 2011. Forgetsick about that ex, I moved to another ex (look stupid, wasn’t I?). I felt like that was my time. I never had time to try some works with this ex, so I took my chance. I wanted to fix something stuck in my heart. Our ‘stuffs’ was on and off, and didn’t work well. So, we’re done for good in the beginning of December. Again, i relieved.

In this second semester, I also took ielts preparation course, and test. Finally I tried to apply a scholarship. I was so happy that I could freely think further about my own future. Eventhough seems like I didn’t get the scholarship, again, I relieved. I’ve tried my best. Fyi, for only one month preparation, I got 6,5 for my ielts. proud of me

On October i started to join Penyala MTB. The idea of this not-so-called-organization is great, we collect books for those who need in Maluku Tenggara Barat.  I am a public relation here, and my job is fun. Writing on the blog, post in facebook and twitter, easy. And sometimes, doing some additional project based on request, voluntary. But, I think that I did not do my best here yet, unfortunately. I haven’t been played with full of my heart in those projects. Maybe just not yet. I still want to give more on next.

And, on November, finally I decided to resign from my school on next June. I love this school, i love my kids, i pretty like my job, but, I want to gain more. I’m thinking about taking master degree, or, working in company. I want to try new experience. I’m still young. I want to do all i want. No one could stop me. I’m doing positive things, right?

Middle of December, ehem, I started to have crush with somebody who I’d love to talk lately. Again, I tried. A little bit. I haven’t feel relieved yet, because I hadn’t try my best. You knowww it’s hard to start anything when you are a girl. I couldn’t talk about this man more, I’ve wrote about him before, but I guess i’ve deleted

What else you want to know? I think those are almost all my things during 2011. I would thank those who spend time with me during 2011. To my best friends, who gave sprinkle stars in my 2011. And I would say sorry of making some mistakes during that year.

I say 2011 is a year of trying and year of relieving. I satisfied enough with myself during that year. I feel i grow up in a good way, become more mature, and gain more and better experience. I’m moving on in positive ways. Alhamdulillah

2012? Year for continue trying, year for achieving more. Bismillah

Good luck for me, and for all of you! Cheers! Happy 2012

Spent holiday in Pari Island with my friends, my sister, and cousins. 15 of us. Wonderful

Island . Beach . Cards . Night . Sun . Sunset . Sea . Prawn . Fish . Snorkling. Wave . Blue . Green . Good friends . Good man . Sorethroat . Black . Tan . Sunblock . Hotpants . Sunglasses . Laugh . Smile . Talk . Cold . Warm . Fireworks . Coconut . Volley . Sand . Photos . Wind . Boat . Mang boy . Cat . Holiday is happiness.

Btw, I’ve just realized that this year, I’ve been to Island like 3 times. And, i always take travel from @rajawisataindo . You can try. Cheap and worthed.

Maybe my circumstance already knew about things that I should “paid” before the show. Rehearsal a lot. 4 days in a week. can be 5 hours in a day. Practiced like crazy. Even the man that I used to give news about my routines, almost always fell asleep before I went home. Fortunately, there was another man who waited until I went home safe. Thanks dit! And that man said (he should be ur driver rather than ur friend, oh man.. u were jealous, ait? :p ) ok back to the topic. And also.. I got pain all over my body. My neck, my back, my leg, bruises everywhere, got sorethroat and fever (fortunately was dopped by bunch of vitamins), et cetera. And need to mention also, some money. Shoes, costume, food, hair do, transportation, so on and so on.

Here are some pictures, behind the scene..

bruises you see above are only the samples. I had more, really.

Did you wonder  about my hair? This is what I did a day before: Cornrow. Uncomfortable as hell zz

but I admit I was way cooler, wasn’t I?

When you do what you love, you will never regret.

I want more. I will not stop dancing. Dear future boyfriend who may be my husband, please allow me to dance, always. Simply because I love it. I love dancing. I love dance.

Alhamdulillah

Thank you Kak Echie (one of the owner of udw)

Thank you my favourite coach! Kak onat

Thank you UDW

So proud and glad to be a part of UDW

I love the original song since the first time I heard. now it’s covered by Glee cast. Beautiful

Life become more hectic this month. I help my sister to prepare her wedding. Back to old routines, teaching. Looking forward to take master degree. Two courses in a week. And start to continue bonny fuschia again. The last but not least: having fun with friends When i had a boyfriend, my saturday night was always taken. Now, not only that day, at least 3 days in a week I go out and have some fun. haha.

Those activities are lovely. I enjoy Bismillah, and alhamdulillah

The last: I’m not this pathetic but I think everyone would love this song. Some of friends talked on twitter, I searched then i fall in love too

Cheer up everyone

2 days in Tidung. with great friends. Eventhough only spent 2 days, i love this trip better than the first (Tidung) one, bcs i love these friends better )))

Great friends and sea never ever fail me

Ten of us. Cabe – Jessica – Rachel – Rita – Ndut – Nindia – Dimas – Rizka – Dipo – Kojo

life is about having fun!

Good bye and Thank youuuuuu

Thank you Aksel family. Thank you all :*

ps: Alhamdulillah for the gorgeous week Ya Allah. I feel content

Met big family, sungkeman, Ied pray, nasi gandul. lovely

Dad was singing -_-

Went to Jogja for big family gathering. Visited Merapi for a while

Eid Mubarak, everyone!

girls talk: newly wed conference :p

still favourite, nashira :*

“Beberapa jam memang tidak akan pernah cukup melepas rasa rindu, tapi beberapa jam telah berhasil membuat kami merasa “berbangga dan berkarya” lagi” (Hedissa, 2011).

Not only a class, that’s a home. One of God’s best gift for me, love u all guys

BEM SUPER

BPH Humas 2009-2011:

Humas!! The attention seeker LOL

SIGMA team! The hardworker

Be a part of Bem family is one of the best decision i ever made.

Thank you for those who gave me the chance, Thank you Allah:)

August, 14th. PKC Pzt. @ Tenten PIM

August, 18th BEM Cinta @ Mbah Jingkrak

Humas team

August, 20th. Aksel 01. @ my house

Al4 Karaoke @ nav. (actually the did the break fasting first at Sambara, but i didn’t join since i went to Alitta’s house first).

They are my authentic happiness. Friends are forever