Still sick. And view a second chance that impossible to take now. . Feel regret again for the past.

This afternoon, I was driving home from hs, alone. In traffic, because of low concentration (I played with my bb, bad me bad bad bad), I hitted a taxi. It just a little bit, I even didn’t notice it until the taxi stopped and the driver went out from the taxi and asked me too. I was so frightened. Really. It was my first time and I didn’t know what to do. I just said sorry to the driver and asked what should I do. Then the driver asked my phone number and told I should go to the taxi pool. I said ok. And then that’s all, he back to the taxi because there were passangers waiting him.

I came back to my car, and continue driving. Still shocked, and scared also. I called ichsan then cried to him and told all the story. And as usual, he said it’s okay, he tried to make me calm down, and he would help me to solve the problem. After I gave the driver’s number, Ich called the him but no answer. Then he texted him said that he is my brother and would fix the problem, blabla.

I feel … U name it.

God, thanks for sent him to me. “Brother”.

Thank you my ich

Btw: still bad feeling now, I hope this problem will be solved well, as soon as possible.

Believe me, that’s my mind too.
I’m sorry. I love you.

Second, I’m sad because, again, I’d be blamed for something I didn’t do. I try my best to make this thing always works. But it seems that I never succeed. And it happened right after I’ve told I’m feeling sad.

Poor me today.

“When u try ur best but u don’t succeed”

Ich picked me up at 7 am in my house, had breakfast with breads, potattoes, and starbucks in rest area, went to pasir koja for a while (met ich’s friend), then: Happy Go Lucky and The Nanny’s

i really recommend you the Happy Go Lucky boutique.

it isn’t only standard “distro” like others, there are many young designer’s collections.

the address is in Jl. ciliwung, near Cisangkuy Yoghurt.

this one is an unique restaurant.: The Nanny’s

their menu is quite same with Pancious: some pasta, steak, pancake, and waffle.

the taste? hmmm, of course Pancious’s better.

thankyou ICHSAN

btw my deep condolence goes to my friend’s grandma.. she passed away last friday, may she Rest In Peace..
be tough my wawa

i’m sorry..

i won’t go to campus today. i feel sick.

night people.

saya mau mengalah tapi tidak mau kalah.

saya manja tapi sok mandiri.

saya mandiri tapi sok manja.

saya banyak maunya, tapi banyak malasnya.

saya pintar berpikir tapi bodoh memutuskan.

saya mudah iri tapi saya tau batas.

saya egois tapi mudah kasihan.

saya tidak suka diatur tapi sulit menentukan aturan.

saya suka rencana tapi saya suka seenaknya.

saya benci menangis, tapi saya lakukan.

saya bersalah, tapi saya menyesal.

saya mau bilang

maafin aku sayangg ..

My ied day until now is imperfect, I haven’t arrived to my hometown. There was a damn traffic, made me and my fam must stayed in tegal for a night and did ied pray in local Mosque here. And poor us, we came late for the pray so we missed our 1st rakaat

Anw, I wanna share my feeling now..
I’ve just realized something..
I’ve just realized that falling in love isn’t only can feel or give to human. We can fallin in love with things too, and lately I realize that my self heart dance so much.

and when I can’t do it while I’ve got a chance, it feels like hmm u don’t allowed to meet ur boy/girl friend, while u miss him/ her a lot.
That’s hurt of course and sure can make u cry too (maybe the last is just for me). I don’t know, maybe u think that I’m the over sensitive one,,but I just feel it. Big hole in my heart: broken heart.:(

But yeah they say life is choices eventhough I don’t see the choices. Why we must choose if we can get all together in the same time? And honestly I’m not good at choosing.
Still hope there is another chance for me to dance later. Good bye piastro, Good luck dancemates. Do the best yaaw

what should i do now, God? (